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March 2012
3 posts
At last the beginning has come to pass but as I look back I only see another end.
All his new beginnings are only endings for the rest of us.
We always feel it will work for us but when in reality do we find our fairy tale endings and have a beginning middle and end?
My fear
That no beginnings will ever find me. Lost in a sea of bad movie endings.
Giving up and beginning to drown
I don’t want to see
The things he sees
In his dreams at night
In his dreams during the day
The things he imagines when he has nothing else to imagine.
I can see the pain
The lust
The hate
The fear
I can’t look into his eyes….
They show me to much of his soul
Of his mind
But it’s hard to resist the white rabbit running directly in front of my eyes
The world spinning
All of us believe around our selves.
Never wanting to admit we were only by chance.
Never meant to be but still are.
He keeps in his soul the secret.
The one thing most precious to him.
The same thing we all have hiding deep inside of us.
The fear we don’t belong and don’t have meaning
February 2012
4 posts
Why?
Because.
When we are alone I feel I’m all u care about for a short time.
U make me happy but it’s not all puppies and rainbows, we still fight.
It was real even if u think I’m fake.
In it arms I feel safe and loved, even if I’m not, it’s where I feel comfort and acceptance of who I am.
U make me laugh, and cry.
How u wear shoes 2 sizes to small and u let me...
do you wanna come with me? we can get away and never come back. <3
A pistol shot, at five o’clock, the bells of heaven ring, tell me what you done it for, No I won’t tell you a thing. Yesterday I begged you before I hit the ground, all I leave behind me is only what I found. … If you can abide it, let the hurdy-gurdy play, stranger ones have come by here before they flew away. I will not condemn you nor yet would I deny, I would ask the same...
January 2012
6 posts
I look in the mirror and see someone else
Someone who is beautiful
But I know that can’t be me
I’m trapped in some one else
Like a prison
I’m banging on the walls but they can’t hear me
I look though eye are not mine
I say things I never thought
I don’t know who I am
lost in her room
her unforgiving hell
her thoughts locked in with her
surrounding her in pain
her only release cold against her skin
her body rises in bumps
a cloud raining red
December 2011
19 posts
i wish no one cared i wish i could make my mistakes and learn from them on my own. make the life i want to have. i dont want what they want for me. i dont want to be with them i want to have a chosen family not a forced one.
